It’s officially my last day at my job. It feels very surreal, like this has all been a bad dream and maybe at any moment I’ll wake up back to “normal.”
I have faith that God is doing a new thing and it’s going to be good. Don’t get me wrong, it is really scary and I have my moments. The grief has come in waves but I have faith and I’m thankful for that. Having faith doesn’t mean I don’t worry but I know that worry breeds fear so I’m doing my best not to go there. Deep down, I really do know that everything is going to be okay but my mind is bombarding me with so many “what ifs.”
So I’m seeking joy. I’ve made lists of things to help keep my mind occupied and I’m using this downtime to rest.
God has given me everything I need to get through this season…endurance, joy, faith, strength, and courage. I’ve been through my fair share of tough times before. God has never failed to provide for my family and He won’t fail us now.
I know I’m not alone in this. Every day I’m seeing more and more of my friends losing their jobs, too.
Did you know that today is Good Friday? I’m reminded of the darkness that fell on the earth the day that Jesus died. His disciples were crushed. Darkness fell over them and they lost all hope. Even though Jesus had told them many times that He would be back, they didn’t understand….He was dead. All hope was lost. Him coming back from what He endured just didn’t seem possible.
But with God, all things are possible. Three days later Jesus rose from the dead and still lives today.
If you are in a dark place right now and have very little hope, look to the cross. There you will find peace beyond understanding, endurance to get through what you’re going through, and joy that will give you strength, courage, and faith.
It might take three days, three weeks, or three years but there will be resurrection in your story, too.
Have faith, be still and know….Sunday is coming.